2nd Step: Forgiveness & Release

After assuming your responsibility for your entire existence, the next step is forgiveness and release. Nobody around you, nobody in your life is responsible for anything that you have experienced because you are the one that created it. How you experience everyone and everything has been generated precisely that way in accordance with your design wishes.

It might appear to you that if you really had any design control over your life, it wouldn't be what you see today, but often what we want and what we are actually creating are two entirely different things. Also, we don't "control" our creation like one might control the engineering of a precision piece of equipment for a very good reason: in order to have an experience, we must become "less than" that which we are creating so we can reside within it. We are creating ourselves, what I call our "actor" self, and the stage the actor is on.

An engineer is creating something contained, where he can control all the specifics according to physical laws, material tolerances, and the capacity of his tools. All those are things the engineer "knows", and are set commodities. Creating one's existence, however, is a bit different, because one is not only creating things outside of themselves; they are creating themselves, the interaction of self and other, and the very rules and methods by which things can be accomplished. Time and physical laws are no barriers, so the means by which one can precisely "control" what one creates are not present.

Furthermore, as long as we experience, we cannot ever be omnipresent or omni-powerful in a conscious sense, because experience requires subject and context, self and other. Experience requires the separation of the God-self into aspects that are experiencer, and the experienced. There's no room for engineer-like control because the only state where that kind of control would be available would eliminate consciousness, as self and other would be blended together.

The engineer experience is available to us here, as separate entities, as we operate on physical phenomena from our actor-self. However, since our ability to create our existence isn't an engineering-like phenomena, we must find a different way to relate to it; it is more like an intuitive, intentional push, or free will assertion, of symbols - imagery, or words, or inflections, gestures, etc. In short, what we imagine, focus on, assert, believe or know, translates in a kind of creative, symbolic language that passes from us consciously to our higher god self, which then generates reality accordingly, in wondrous ways we could never have imagined had we been trying to control it.

Part of the reality our God-self creates is who and what we think we are in the here an now, as well as the past, the present, the future, and everything we experience. How we react, how we experience others acting towards us - all that is the translation of our symbolic, creative focus and intent as our God-self creates our experience.

If we focus on pain, anger, lack, want, injustice, ignorance ... those intentions, those focused-upon things, symbolically instruct our God-self what to create. Often, we want things because we are focused on what we do not have; we are distraught with the bad things in our lives. We focus on them to try and figure them out, figure out how to stop them. As we are focused on them, our God-self simply creates it out of the symbolic instruction. This one of the reasons it is so hard to change for some people.

Forgive all that and release it. Forgive others because they are not to blame; forgive yourself because you didn't know. Remember this: the past can be changed. Nothing is beyond the power of God to create or recreate. Today, right now, from now on, for at least 15 minutes a day 3-4 days a week, focus only on those things which give you joy. Imagine you have them, that you are what you want to be, that others treat you the way you wish to be treated. No matter how foolish or unlikely you think it might be, don't let your mind dissuade you from letting go and imagining.

You don't have to figure out how to solve your problems; their solution will come to you. Sometimes, the hardest belief to overcome is the belief that we must think about our problems and find solutions to them, even when thinking about them just makes us sad or frustrated. Don't let stage props and actors in you play tell you who and what you are and how you should behave and feel; you have the free will to be, do, feel, and think as you wish.

There is no one to blame, not even yourself, for anything that has occurred, because you have been experiencing exactly what you focused on; there is no hurry, there is no "wasted time"; there is no regret; you have an infinite amount of time to experience an infinite number of things, and so there is no worry and no blame and no regret. All that you have already experienced can be re-thought, and re-imagined, in a way that can give you a very enjoyable experience now.

To move forward and out of the cycle of recreating the same patterns over and over, release and forgive your old identity, your old life, and your old world, and focuse on what you enjoy.